It's hard to say without really knowing you, RG, but perhaps it the finality of it all. As you say, it's been several months since the funeral. Since then, you've probably recovered from the shock, numbness, and family obligations that often immediately comes with the death of a loved one; now you've had time to reflect on what he meant to **you** and, in your own way, work your way through this loss. Now it's time to say the your final goodbye, so to speak. And this is never easy.

I'm sorry for your loss. Best wishes on Friday. Remember: we always carry a little bit of our most cherished ones with us, even if it's just in our thoughts.

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Nubian