My dear deer friend .... thinking of you!!!! it may be as well that you've had a chance to be more physically rested now then you were at the time of his death .... know there was a lot of going to and fro in order to spend time with him .... there was shock and exhaustion and sooooo many other things to think about and take care of at that time, but now your time and energy can be a bit more focused on this event .... more time to worry and psyche yourself out about it .... I'll be thinking of you as you deal with this extra step in the grieving process ... hugs and lots of loving thoughts coming your way!!!!